Dear Friend,
You did not fail.
You are not a failure.
Do you believe that?
I didn't.
After this season I will most likely not ever be a collegiate athlete again.
I failed.
But why do I feel like that?
I have always set this image in my head that if I do not complete and graduate while playing lacrosse for a college, then my reputation and goal to be a collegiate athlete would be some how revoked.
Well....I can tell you that that mentality is absolutely ridiculous.
I have not failed.
I have played and done well at the collegiate athletic level for two years. I was part of a team that changed me and shaped me into who I am and for that I am so entirely grateful.
Not so great things happen and situations change.
That is not failing.
For the past couple months I have decided that if I don't pray, don't read my Bible and don't think about "where God wants me to be" than He would not be able to tell me what I did not WANT to hear.
Ask me how well that worked out for me....
It did NOT.
I am happy with where my world will be going in a couple months.
Do not get me wrong --- I am sad to be leaving and moving on from the life of living on my own in the South. It will TOTALLY be missed.
Change is happening and I'm embracing it.
...okay so maybe it is a very hesitant embrace but hey I am at least TRYING to fully embrace it.
So cheers to a new adventure with new people and a collegiate athletic career that I can proudly remember for the rest of my life as achieving a dream that I have worked for for a very long time.
And cheers to turning around and admitting I was wrong and actually listening to He who created all.
I am not a failure and I have not failed.
Neither have you.
Remember that.
JoJo
